But they soon forgot what he had done and did not wait
for his counsel. ~ Psalm 106:13
I have notes on my
bathroom mirror & in my journal, all to remind me of the great things—the miracles—the
Lord has done on my behalf. All of these
reminders and still I worry, still I wonder how it will all turn out. How can it be that I can know the awesomeness
of His power and might and still wonder about making health insurance premiums
or buying diapers or other things that I worry about, but God does not? And God does not worry, because everything
belongs to him, from the depths of the earth to the mountain tops, (see Psalm
95:4). And I have seen His great and
mighty power, so why do I worry?
The answer is painful:
Because I have forgotten, ignored, and put out of my mind all of the things He
has already done for me. Just like the
Israelites forgot all that God had done for them in Egypt and at the Red Sea,
still they turned away. The sad part is
they didn’t look at it as turning away.
They just saw themselves as moving steadily along, as they always
had. But in the end, it became disaster
for them.
Lord, I don’t want my
foolishness or my need for answers now—before you are ready to reveal them—to be
the reason for my missing the things you want to do in my life. Father, I pray that you would not let me run
ahead of what you are trying to show me and accomplish in my life. Help me to always remember the miracles,
especially as I look at my daughter, and even as I realize that my husband and
I have made it this far together and now with her. Thank you for all the things you have already
done and still have to do. I pray that I
would always remember that even when I can’t see how You will get it done, that
it is not for me to worry about, but it
is for me to trust in You to do it.
This is an easy thing in the eyes of the Lord. ~ 2
Kings 3:18
